Ringing in the new year...

Like there is not other.

At home with the Bug. ☺ I wouldn't want it any other way. (Well okay, maybe 2% of me can think of other things I would want to be doing, but not enough to do a damn thing about it.)


So here's where every one makes a resolution for a new year. I've come to the conclusion in my wise old age...all 28 years, that if you have to make a resolution only once a year - either you have life figured out or you are just too damn lazy to make goals for yourself more than once a year. I'll let you decide which one applies to you.

I do not make resolutions. I just take life in stride and make modifications where it applies.

Through the year I have encountered ups and downs and life can go no where but up from here. You know that saying, when life hands you lemons cut them up and take shots...wait a minute, something's not right there. That's the weekend motto. ☺ When life hands you lemons make lemonade. Sounds a bit better and quenches your thirst at the same time.

To the family and friends who have helped me turn over a new chapter in my life thank you from the bottom of my heart and soul for being the best support anyone could have ever asked for. Learning how to be a single mom has provided nothing but entertainment, a few more gray hairs, learning how to be carefree, and how to raise a boy.

I think some of my favorite boy moments have been where Corbin tells me as I walk into the bathroom saying, "Mommy, don't forget to wipe your weiner!" I'm sorry...WHAT? Or when he plays with his toy from Aunty Dawn. The toy tells him "You'll do better next time" and he gets SOOOO excited and yells "MOMMY! I will do better next time! Good job for me!"

Can I keep the Bug at three? He's perfect at cuddling but being independent. Guess I have to just let him be and take the next step in raising a boy. Now where did I leave that manual?

Here's to a new year and being bold.

♫ And I just can't keep living this way
So starting today, I'm breaking out of this cage
I'm standing up, I'ma face my demons

I'm manning up, I'ma hold my ground
I've had enough, now I'm so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now! ♫

So with the new year crawling it's way to the West Coast the Bug and I wish you happiness and let the new year bring you happiness in every aspect of your life.

Bittersweet endings...

♫ There's not a mean bone in my body

I never could be unkind

I know we're not talking

But there's something on my mind

It ain't righteous indignation

I don't plan to rant or rave

No need for us to fight and fuss

I just want to say

Have a nice rest of your life without me

I'll be proud to be a part of your history

If it makes you happy honey

Keep talking bad about me

And have a nice rest of your life without me - Randy Travis ♫

Well it's done. Signed, sealed, and delivered. I am officially divorced. About damn time. Only took 1 year and 7 months....dear Lord.

I honestly don't know if I would have been able to do this without my family and friends. I have never had a more awesome support system. This whole process has been full of  bittersweet moment because I have lost good friends and learned who my true ones are. Those who have stuck by my side through the thick and thin and the complete ups and downs.

A lot of this hasn't sunk in just yet. I'm still processing everything. I have my moments of 'YES. I win, this is over' to 'This is not how I wanted this to end'. I guess in this case that's natural and that's just how it goes. It is what it is (I swear I was just bitching about this phrase), these are the cards I have been dealt and from here I move forward. I love you my support system for all the times you've let me bitch, to being my shoulder to cry on, and to making me laugh at life and letting me know that everything will be okay.

So here's to opening a new chapter in my life as I sign off on the old one. A toast....to me and officially starting a new beginning.

♫ Somebody's gonna give you a lesson in leaving

Somebody’s gonna give you back what you been givin’

And I hope that I’m around

To watch’em knock you down

It’s like you to love ‘em and leave ‘em

Just like you loved me and left me

It’s like you to do that sort of thing

Over and over again

You’re a fool hearted man

I hear you’ve been asking about me

From some of my friends

But you better believe I’m not going

Through that again

You’re the kind of man

A women thinks she can change

Oh but the only thing changing

Is my way of thinking

And I’m thinking that maybe someday ♫

Chin up, Kid

♫ You got to keep on keepin on
You got to keep your head up high
You gotta work with what you've got
And someday you will flyyyyy ♫

There are days I want to throw in the towel - today being one of them. From love - to faith - to hope. I just don't get the way life works some times and why things are the way they are. I can't stand the sayings, 'it is what it is', 'what doesn't kill you makes you stronger', 'if it's meant to be it's meant to be'...what the hell happened to being able to be in control of life and guiding it the way you wanted it to go?

My daddy doesn't talk too often, he usually says hi and passes the phone on to my mom, but the times I need him the most he is there for me. Growing up, crying wasn't really an option. He always told me, 'chin up, kid. Crying isn't going to get you anwhere.' Yup - the wise words rang again this time around. Somehow they made me feel better.

I have a hard time with letting things be. I am not a fan of the unexpected. I do not believe there is a higher power out there with a plan for me, but I do believe that Karma comes around. Now the being patient part will be the part that kills me...

I would like to think I am a patient person with a big heart. Lately I feel that patience running thing and my heart becoming more skeptical and less tolerant of bullshit.

My new goal in life...

Deep breath...it will all be okay, right?

Through this road I have traveled...

I have learned who my true friends/family are.

♫ Thank you for being a friend
Traveled down the road and back again
Your heart is true your a pal and a confidant.

And if you through a party
Invited everyone you ever knew
You would see the biggest gift would be from me
And the card attached would say thank you for being a friend. ♫

The lights at the end of my tunnels are becoming one and getting closer. In the next month I will have finalized my divorce, won custody of my son, and taken a huge step forward in putting my life back together. I've noticed the last couple of weeks I've started seeing glimpses of the old me. I can't even begin to express how excited and happy I am to have the old me coming back through. The smallest victories end up being the biggest.

I am sooooo excited for Thanksgiving and the holidays! We have had such wonderful winter weather that is to include lots of rain and indoor activities! With a three year old it gets hard containing all that excitement and energy. So what do we do?

Yay for being messy and making little hand prints. I was looking at his art and all I could do was think how much he's grown and he's not little anymore. :( His little hands are getting bigger! It's so cute to see how he changes as the years grow. Now if only I can get that kid to gain some weight on his little body that would be great!!

My little boy is growing up - as long as he's happy and healthy I guess I'll let him get a little bigger. Not much, just a little...

Today was another wonderful family day. It was Uncle Scottie's birthday party! He's finally 21! WOOHOO. I really need to start getting more pictures of him. Unfortunately I didn't have Bug. (Not to worry that will change very soon!! WOOT!) But of course I got a picture of my adorable baby niece Avery.

This little one is going to be very spoiled with me as Aunty. I already can't make it through Target without shopping and getting something for her every time I get Bug something. Oh well - she's the only little girl I have to shop for at the moments so until I have my own she's just gonna have to suffer and get clothes from me. I'm sure no one will complain! ♥

♫ We are family
I got all my sisters with me
We are family
Get up ev'rybody and sing

Ev'ryone can see we're together
As we walk on by and we fly just like birds of a feather
I won't tell no lie all of the people around us they say
Can they be that close
Just let me state for the record
We're giving love in a family dose ♫

I am woman -

Hear me roar...OH. MY. GOODNESS. What a hectic two weeks it's been and it's only going to get crazier! I don't know where to even start with this...where else - with a song that's playing in my iPod. Brady Paisley actually wrote all his love songs about it he just doesn't know it...WHAT!? A girl can dream, can't she?

♫ I called to say I'm working late tonight
to cancel our dinner date
but she just said thats alright
and just like that she makes some other plans
saw a movie with a couple friends
had herself a ball
oh cause afterall

she's her own woman
without me, she does fine
she's her own woman - Brad Paisley ♫

I think the one thing I've learned through the last few years is that I need my independence. I see how many women there are out there that get out and have independence and I figure, why can't I have that? Granted, I have it all I want now, but I can't ever lose it. I've lost it once, never again. I also know I don't get out as much as I used to. So my goal - and possibly my new years resolution, get out once a month and go have girl time. Becoming a single mom has taken over my life.

So last night I had such a packed day with Bug. I can't tell you the last time I did something like that! We went and took pictures - he's sooooo cute.

It don't get much cuter than this.

The love of my life - he gets cuter as the days pass. He's going to be a heartbreaker...correction, he already is a heartbreaker with those eye lashes.

I finally finished my medical terminology class that was taking over any waking moment I had available. Yay for an A! That class kicked some serious ass. I made Dean's list for the summer, can't wait to get one for the fall. I know, I know, I missed graduating with honors with my first degree by .05 - NOT gonna happen this time around.

So yesterday after we went and saw big sis (aunty Melissa), dad (Big Bob), and brother Alec (cousin Alec). We unfortuantely took so much time getting pictures done that we missed the run, but caught the end of the award ceremony.

After that we hit up a little lunch with Aunty Dawn. Bug's been asking about her, so we decided to do lunch, errands, and hang out a bit because it's been such a long time. We've decided we need to hang out a little more often then once every 6 mos...

Well after Aunty Dawn time, we decided to spend time with Aunty Michelle, Baby Avery, and Uncle Scottie. Seeing as how Uncle Wade went out with Bubbie and Zayda, Michelle and I have been spending some time together since we all started talking again and decided to craft and have some girl time.Well for starters I decided to pick up some wine and dinner. Well that went GREAT. I bought some white wine to go with our pasta and then realized there was no wine opener. Yes, that is how it goes with Michelle and I. We went shopping one time and kept picking out the same things. So as we decided what to do about the wine we decided to save the hassle and just make a liquor store run. Okay - confession, the last time I made a liquor store run I was in college. Then to top it off, I bought Mike's Hard Lemonade...yeah I can't even tell you the last time I drank that before last night.

I attempted crafting - always goes well when step-by-step directions are involved. I learned how to ruffle and make a flower.

Don't laugh. It was my first attempt...



The final product was a burlap stocking - pretty awesome idea. Yay for Michelle and all her blogs and crafting ideas.

If I could get the phone to email me the picture I'd post it up. In the mean time, here's the link to Michelle's blog. Burlap Stocking

Side note: Yay for the holidays! Can't wait to buy the Christmas tree and decorate. They sell these in Old Town. I would love more than anything to own one.

♫ Christmas time is here

Happiness and cheer

Fun for all that children call

Their favorite time of the year

Snowflakes in the air

Carols everywhere

Olden times and ancient rhymes

Of love and dreams to share

Sleigh bells in the air

Beauty everywhere

Yuletide by the fireside

And joyful memories there

Christmas time is here

We'll be drawing near

Oh, that we could always see

Such spirit through the year

Oh, that we could always see

Such spirit through the year... ♫

This is the song that never ends...

....yes it goes on and on my friend. Some people started singing it, not knowing what it was, and they'll continue singing it forever just because...This is the song that never ends...

I swear there are days where I hear one song and I just can't stop singing it. I have to admit Reba McEntire and women are strong tend to be my favorite. Her songs, no matter how upset or pissed off I am can get me out of a mood in no time.

Today is my Bug day! Woohoo. I picked up Bug today and noticed he had a busted lip. His first one!!

I know it doesn't look too bad, but it's horrible. His little teeth and the little boys head did so much damage. It's discolored and it's pretty torn up on the inside of his lip. Oh well, boys will be boys and accidents happen. The joys of rasing a child of the opposite sex on your own always provides for entertainment. There are days I ask him where the manual is and he just looks at me like I'm crazy and I missed the memo that says I have to figure this out on my own. Well, thanks for the warning. He's luck he's cute and I love him more than anything in this world.

Alright, I have to get to bed because I have been staying up late hours and it's kicking me in the bottom. Plus because I have Bug my days start at least an hour earlier. Man I can't wait for the weekend to sleep in.

Until then I leave you with the song that I have been singing all day...

♫ It's everywhere you look
If you look hard enough
Its really not hard to see
Yeah, once you put your arms around it
You can never get too much
Love is a sweet, sweet thing

It's in the smile of a stranger
In the eyes of a child
On the corner of a crowded street
Its everywhere around us
Its always growing wild
Love is a sweet, sweet thing - Faith Hill ♫

To infinity and beyond....

♫ You've got a friend in me
You've got a friend in me
If you've got troubles,I've got 'em too
There isn't anything I wouldn't do for you
We stick together and can see it through
Cause you've got a friend in me
You've got a friend in me - Toy Story ♫

Yes, ladies and gentlemen - that's my kid with a runny nose. This is nothing new. As soon as you wipe his nose it runs right away. I have stock in Kleenex just because of how much the damn thing runs. I always ask him why it runs and he tells me - because it likes to. Okay, Mr. Smartypants.

I was so stoked for him to be his happy purple ghost and instead we ended up being Buzz Lightyear. Original. Real original. Maybe next year we can get a little more creative.

I have to have a bragging mom moment here - my Bug is SO polite, he minds his Ps and Qs. He told everyone Happy Halloween and Thank You that other parents were telling their children to take notes and to be more like Bug because of how respectful and polite he is! That's right I RAISED MY BOY RIGHT!

So after the third house of trick or treating Bug says to me - Mommy, my bag almost full. I cracked up! All I could do was think, boy you got a long way to go with that big bag Aunty Michelle gave us, but he was so excited I told him that the more houses we went to the more full it would be. Talk about running like a bat out of hell to the next house as he yells, TO INFINITY AND BEYOND.

Thank you Buzz, thank you.

I have to say, for being three and only going down a couple of blocks the kid made out like a bandit.



Unfortunately Bug had to go back to his dad's and tomorrow is Bug Love day. Only one way to send him back. Full of sugar. ♥

Today has been one of those days where I really REALLY wish I worked from home. For those of you who don't know what I do, I am a buyer for a defense contracting company. Pretty badass, huh? It gets more badass at the fact I really can't tell you a damn thing about my job or else....yeah, you know it. I'm gonna have to hire someone to come after you if you know anything more than that.

I have to admit I have no tolerance for stupid people. I have little tolerance for them to begin with but today was just one of those days where there just was none at all. In my previous blogs I've mentioned that I'm what Lace calls "Texas". You don't screw with me, you don't lie to me, and you don't ask me stupid questions without getting all your facts straight. Is that too hard to ask? APPARENTLY SO.

Today was just brutal. I had a vendor flat out lie and whine to me today and that just doesn't fly in my book. I don't care who you are. That sure as hell isn't going to make me want your business anymore. I've had a couple of those in the past year and I took care of that real quick. I don't use them anymore. I have a three year old and he doesn't whine and bitch as much as some of the people I deal with.

 

Happy Halloween!

♫ He did the mash
He did the monster mash
The monster mash
It was a graveyard smash
He did the mash
It caught on in a flash
He did the mash
He did the monster mash - Bobby Picket ♫

Yay for Halloween! My baby is so cute he scored TONS of candy! First things first. Our festivities started last night. Let's see if you can guess what we did...

I love the fact Bug was eating the icing in front of me, asked for the picture, and then made a face like he was completely busted. That's my boy! Acting the part. We didn't do anything special. Added butter and eggs and mixed. Made colored icing and added sprinkles and TA DAAA!

Lucky enough, we are the only ones eating these cookies because Bug kept licking the sprinkles off his hand before getting more.

We did not get to the pumpkins because Bug just wanted to look at them and not cut them. Fine by me. I am not one to push him to do something he doesn't want to do.

Well today we did the trick or treating and I thought for sure the whole time Bug was going to hide behind me - but he was out there with the big boys yelling trick or treat and saying his please and thank yous. I love the compliments I get from other parents saying how polite he is. Especially when mom's turn around and tell their older kids to take notes from the baby.

Yup - that is Buzz Lightyear you see. He was so excited to be a purple happy ghost Aunty Michelle was so wonderful to make for us and at the last minute changed his mind. I guess that's the mind of a three year old.

When I have more time I will load the pictures of Bug and all his candy, but I do have to do my medical terminology homework. Hopefully this week goes by fast. I miss my Bug and can't wait to kiss him!

TGIF...

No longer stands - I used to wish it were Friday and then I gave up my weekends to start working Sundays.

♫ I'm gettin' paid by the hour, an' older by the minute.
My boss just pushed me over the limit.
I'd like to call him somethin',
I think I'll just call it a day. - Alan Jackson ♫

Plus, Wednesdays are my favorite days! Give you one guess why!! ♥

Corbin is leaning how to tell me when he's tired and has been putting himself to bed at night. I'm not to sure how I feel about this one. My favorite thing is holding him and rocking him to sleep. I was heart broken the first night and then I found this...

Yes ladies and gentelmen, that's my bed. My son just put himself to sleep in mommy's bed. Can't win them all and if that gives me a reason to love on him some more and cuddle with him, I'LL TAKE IT!

Today Wade and Michelle had one of the their anniversaries - YAY for love!! ♥ If I ever decide to have a relationship again I definitely want to be able to have one like theirs. They were meant for each other in every way possible!

♫ You stand by me
And you believe in me
Like nobody ever has
When my world goes crazy
You're right there to save me
You make me see how much I have - Tim McGraw ♫

So Bubbie and I babysat the kids and Uncle Scottie today. We had so much fun. They are so cute! I am always up for baby Avery love and Bug love. Bubbie and Corbin read a lot of books while I loved on baby Avery.

This was originally a picture of Avery eating dinner, but Bug wanted to be in the picture with her and felt the need to dominate. At least they are the most adorable things in the world!

Wow - resemblance anyone?

Alright - time to go get the sweet little thing that put himself to sleep in my bed.

And we're back...

♫ Just the two of us, we can make it if we try
Just the two of us
Just the two of us, building castles in the sky
Just the two of us, you and I -Will Smith ♫

Alright - I am back in action. The last couple of days have been HECTIC to say the least...let's start with Tuesday's festivities. As much as I didn't think it would happen the way the weekend and Monday went, I made it to 28 years of life. Thank goodness!

My presents from the kids were letters to spell ART so I can do something crafty. HAHA me crafty, yeah OKAY. Well here's how this works. Michelle has this awesome blog Land of the Misfit Toyz and she puts up tutorials of everything she does, and let me tell you, she does a lot of freaking awesome things. A.R.T is what I will be attempting to do. I'll be following the tutorial. If you scroll down on her blog you'll see the awesome table she created as well as the G-rated version of the gift she got me. I had to search through a lot of the box to take this picture, so enjoy it, and I'm sure if you can think of a bad word it is in this box. Wade and Michelle love me and lately there have been a serious of inside jokes - or as we say, Michelle has a way with words. She a treasure. HAHA.

My new magnets:

I'll have to take the time and write Michelle a cute little story and post it online with the words blurred out. Haha. You get to fill in the blanks! :)

It's been awesome having Corbin just about all week. He's been having accidents at night, so I think we might have to go back to pull ups for a few days. I'm not too worried because when he started using the bathroom he did really well, had a week of accidents, and after that was perfect. So I'm going to hope this is the same thing.

I know there was nothing exciting today - work work work, school school school, and the best of it all the love of my life - BUG! ♥

November is going to provide a lot of entertainment! We will have Grandma come stay, I tread the waters of mediation again - my final fight, Auntie Amber (AKA Lovie) will be joining us for Thanksgiving, and then come the Christmas tree! Yes, I am one of those that gets the Christmas tree Thanksgiving weekend!!

I have to say I'm looking forward to the next two months and can't wait to start the new year. Something tells me the divorce will finally be over, the bankruptcy will be over, Corbin will be where he needs to be, and I can fully move forward with my new life.

Karma has been coming around bit by bit, but something tells me Karma isn't done just yet. Good thing for me!

♫ I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat
But always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance - Lee Ann Womack ♫

AHHHHH.....

I think the world is coming to an end. Okay, maybe not that drastic, but I've been so swamped I haven't been able to blog about the awesome birthday present I got that is going to provide loards of entertainment for us. So until I can get my homework and other things done I have to behave and not blog.

So stay tuned. I should be back in action either later tonight or tomorrow....

Enjoy the music while you wait. (This damn song has been in my head ALL day!)

♫ I'm waitin' on the sun to set cause yesterday aint over yet
I started smoking cigarettes there's nothing else to do I guess
Dusty roads aint made for walking, spinning tires aint made for stoppin'
I'm giving up on love cause love's given up on me

I gave it everything I had and everything I got was bad
Life aint hard but it's too long to live it like some country song
Trade the truth in for a lie, cheating really aint a crime
I'm giving up on love cause love's given up on me

Forget your high society, I'm soakin' it in Kerosene
Light 'em up and watch them burn, teach them what they need to learn HA!
Dirty hands aint made for shakin', aint a rule that aint worth breakin'
Well I'm giving up on love cause love's given up on me

Now I don't hate the one who left
You can't hate someone who's dead
He's out there holding on to someone, I'm holding up my smoking gun
I'll find somewhere to lay my blame the day she changes her last name
Well I'm giving up on love cause love's given up on me
Well I'm giving up on love HEY love's given up on me - Miranda Lambert ♫

Is today over yet...

OH. EM. GEE. Talk about a day that doesn't seem to end.

So my day started at 1:30 this morning....yup, high fever and migraine. WOOHOO. So I got my sick self out of bed and really didn't want to, but went to get my ice pack out of the freezer to help cool me down. 103 fever is never fun. I noticed it was raining and I LOVE the rain. So I look outside to watch the rain and low and behold, what do I see - I see a stranger looking at me. Just kidding that would be creepy, but I saw a stranger trying to steal my truck.

The second love of my life...

Shocker! The Texas girl drives a big effing red truck. And guess what - MINE'S BIGGER THAN YOURS!

♫ She can drive a truck and rope and ride...

She's got a pair of boots that she just loves
And like me, likes Gus From Lonesome Dove...
 - George Strait ♫

Karma is a huge thing I believe in and karma is slowly paying me back for the hell I've dealt with the last year and half. I called the cops. Lucky enough this dude was so busy checking out all the cars and circling my truck there was a police unit in the vacinity and they arrested him. Good thing because had he hurt Animal (yes, I have named my truck) he would have met my baseball bat. Turns out Dodge Trucks are a hot ticket item in San Diego. That's great, as long as it's not mine.

Michelle and I decided I should have gotten a picture of the dude to post on my blog as a warning, but sick and sleepy the thought didn't cross my mind. I should have just told him where to go for my ex's truck that way I would FINALLY stop getting late payment notices since I'm the damn co-signer on the truck.

So then I go back to sleep FINALLY around 4 and wake up at 7. Yup, 7, my alarm goes off at 6:45 am. I was that tired I just about slept through my alarm. 15 minutes longer it would have turned itself off and I would have really been screwed. So up I get, throat still swollen and I break down and call the doctor once I finally get to work in the pouring rain.

My doctor is so packed they have me see another guy. NEVER a good idea. This guy was just all sorts of cracked out. Some how I went in for my throat and fever and came out with meds for strep and a single case of sever major depression. Yeah, I'm not sure I follow either. He told me that my throat was just inflammed and it wasn't strep, but he was going to treat it like it was...something doesn't sound right.

When I went to go to the pharmacy to talk to them about my prescription I look at my paperwork and I see somehow in this visit not only did I acquire pharyngitis, but a migraine, and depression...something is not right. In all honesty I was too tired and needed to get to work that I didn't bother.

Later during the day at work they ended up calling me back, but it was the other doctor for my tumor to go in and talk about surgery options. They want me to go in tomorrow. I'm sorry, but I refuse to talk about surgery on my birthday. I told her tomorrow was not a good day. I go in next month. I'll keep ya'll posted on that.

Other than working until I got kicked out by an engineer who wanted to go home, and being called an Evil Minion by Cuddles, I got nothing for you. It was a long day and I have 8 minutes until it's over and then I get to pretend to be excited I'm a year older. I am excited to finally see what my present from Michelle is going to be though - something tells me I will be in tears from laughing so hard and so embarassed you'll be able to see me from the other side of the county! CAN'T WAIT!

I get Bug tomorrow - YAY and after days like today - he makes everything better! ♥ Nothing can go wrong when you have the love of a Bug!

Bug - 2 weeks. Time has flown by...



♫ A mother's love is forever
A mother's love is for free
It doesn't matter if you're good or bad
She's there for whatever you need

In the world of fantasy

Hold on to your dreams
Open up your heart and see
All the love you need is me - Dianna Ross ♫



Harvest Festival

Bug went to his dad today. BOO. I hate having to let Bug go and it makes me sad when I don't have him. The brightside - I get him one day early this week thanks to my birthday being on Tuesday. Hopefully we will all be well enough to do something.

I have recruited Auntie Michelle to help with Bug's costume and I'm thinking a Lego. Maybe if we make it purple it will be more appealing to him. That's right, I said it, PURPLE. As I told Beth today, I am not one of those people who will restrict their son or daughter for liking a color that is not 'acceptable' by society. Society does not rule this household and if my Bug wants his favorite color to be purple they by golly - purple it is!



Speaking of Halloween we need to go out and get our pumpkin to carve. We already have one to carve:

Yeah, you're gonna have to turn your head for this one. I'm too lazy to figure out how to turn it.

For those of you with depth perception, especially when the picture is sideways, it's about the size of an apple....do they have tools we can carve with small enough for this pumpkin?? I'm thinking he's going to have to finger paint or use markers on this one!

And today was the annual Harvest Festival with Beth, Elene, Auntie Michelle, and Baby Avery. This is also my time of year I get the yearly Christmas ornament. Bug and I have a tradition where we get a ornament every year for our Christmas Tree. Yes, I know it's early, but oh well, get over it. Our Christmas tree will be up the week of Thanksgiving - I am a HUGE fan of my Christmas tree. It may not look like one of those fancy ones, but all the ornamtents are on one level because of Bug. Fine by me. I of course have the standard Texas ornaments: Astros and Longhorns. Last year Bug and I got a cowboy boot for our annual ornament.

This year:

Can't wait for the tree or Christmas!!

Unlike Auntie Michelle's neighbors who already have a wreath in the window...which surprisingly didn't shock me too much. They do have a palm tree they just cut in the front lawn, and in all honesty, it looks like a fallic symbol. I'll take a picture next time just because it makes me giggle everytime I see it.

Viva la nakie!!

So today I'm under the weather, some body aching here, some body aching there, my energy of let's do something did not exsit. In fact it was more of, lay still child, mommy can't handle any movement today. I swear the closer my birthday comes around the corner the more I fall apart. I may not make it to Tuesday. I'll have to write my will after I blog and take my quiz. I at least want to leave here with a good grade and a complete blog for a week.

♫ Go, go, go shawty
It's your birthday
We gon' party like it's yo birthday
We gon' sip Bacardi like it's your birthday
And you know we don't give a fuck
It's not your birthday! - 50 Cent ♫

 

Corbin's been asking me what I want for my birthday and those conversations always turn out interesting.

Bug: Mommy, what want for birthday.

Me: Kisses from you.

Bug: Gross mommy, no kisses.

Me: Okay, so then what are you going to get mommy.

Bug: I dunno, Percy (Thomas the train's friend).

Me: Oh that's nice Bug. Mommy will like Percy.

Bug: No mommy, MY Percy and MY cake and ice cream.

Me: Okay, so what do I get for my birthday?

Bug: Nothing.

How the hell did I get the short end of the stick on this one??

For the most part Corbin's been amazing in enteratining himself. There were a few threats of if he didn't put his toys away I was going to toss them. Oh don't worry. I follow through on my threats. He then opted to play with Spiderman.

Me: if you don't clean up. I'm going to call Spiderman's Mommy to come pick him up because you two are not following directions.

Bug: Spiderman no have mommy.

Me: Oh yes he does, why do you think he's got split personality?

Bug: No Mommy, you crazy girl.

Me. Try me.

He ended up picking his toys up but the whole time he called me crazy. You win some, you lose some.

Bug apparently felt the need to go the nudist way today...defiinitely my son. He went screaming into the bathroom saying he had to pee completely clothed and came out stark naked. I'm sorry...did I miss something? Apparently having to go pee requires taking off clothes now.

♫ No shoes...no shirt...no problem. - Kenny Chesney ♫

It was a sucessful day. I love being able to say - come sit with Mommy for 10 minutes and relax.When your 10 minutes are up, you can go play again...

I WIN BITCHES!

Baking #FAIL

So yesterday I completely forgot to post about this, but I completely FAILED at my attempt to make banana nut muffins...oh so sad. The beauty of this was I was talking to Michelle while they were over for their play date and was mixing my ingredients and I'm going on and on about how long it's been since I've baked something...she looks at me and says, long enough that you have to stir your baking powder...? I look down and sure enough I am stirring it to break it up. Once I tasted the batter I just about spit it back out. The look on my face, I'm sure, said it all. I am so NOT winning Betty Crocker of the Year award. There goes THAT life long dream! Oh well. NEXT!

So my birthday is rolling around the corner here and I am sooo not looking forward to it. As I absent mindedly complained to Lace, for some reason 30 just seems to get closer every year. I get the 'are you shitting me look' and she says, "Is that how this works? Every year we get older?" AH! I'm going senial already. I'm bitching about 28 here, I don't know if I'll make it to 30, and if I do if I'll even remember it....Speaking of birthdays. I feel like I should be scared not knowing what's going to be given to me by Michelle...haha - the evil grin and laugh I got early was not reassuring! Either way it will be funny and classic. I'll be sure to post the pictures assuming they aren't too embarassing....

Today was one of those days where I really didn't give a crap about too much that was going on around me... Yes, ladies and gentelmen, that's the sign on the door to my cube which I share with Lacey. Can you believe it, they thought it would be a good idea to put best friends in the same space. FOOLS. The sticky note is because apparently the common sense our engineers lack needs to be helped by post its telling them how to operate the door.

♫ I really wanna care.
I wanna feel somethin'.
Let me dig a little deeper:.
No, sorry: nothin'. - Jo Dee Messina ♫

It was pretty much confirmed when I had frozen yogurt for lunch sometimes it's okay to do things out of the norm in order to relax a little. It was much needed by Lace and I. She had the great idea and somehow I got blamed for it...wtf. Oh well, nothing new there. It's how we roll. :)

I try to follow through on everything with Bug and for 98% of the time I'm pretty good, but I know as much as I want my child to follow rules I also want him to know how to break them and suffer the consequences. I wasn't one to think outside of the box until lately. It makes me look back and wonder how did I survive the last 27 years? Bug needs to know how to do what I didn't growing up - think outside the box. He's a very smart kid and he puts things together very quickly. I can't wait to see what troubles he starts causing as the years come by.

It has been raining so much lately, and it's been amazing to have such rain (even if SoCal drivers suck more than normal driving in it). The sunsets have been breath taking.

♫ You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile - Uncle Kracker ♫

You can take the girl outta Texas...

...but you can't take the Texas outta the girl.

♫ There wouldn't be no Alamo,
No Cowboys in the Superbowl:
No "Lonesome Dove", no "Yellow Rose",
If it wasn't for Texas. - George Strait ♫

Something you will learn about me throughout these posts is that I am outspoken, opinonated, and I don't really give a crap what people think about me. I stand up for what I believe and I will always encourage Bug to voice his opinion with being able to understand and really listen to what other people are saying or trying to get across. I believe that you can fully be opinionated and outspoken, but still be respectful and willing to listen to what others say.

When you Remember the "Muslim" bombing of the World Trade Center (Twice)...Remember:

Remember the Christian bombing in OKC.
Remember the Christian bombing of the 1996 Olympics.
Remember the Christian bombings of the abortion clinics.
Remember the thousands of Christian lynchings of African Americans.
Remember the Christian ban of condoms in AIDS stricken Africa.
Remember the Christian bombing of an orphanage in Tripoli!
Remember the Christian bombing of an aspirin factory in Sudan!
Remember the Christian bombing of a wedding in western Iraq!

Remember the Christian CRUSADES!

Let's all just fight hate and intolerance, no matter what Religion it comes from.

Everyone has their own right to their opinion and your opinion can not be wrong. Just don't force me to believe what you believe especially when it comes to religion. No one gets to tell me what I believe, or don't believe, is wrong. I am not close minded, I am not racist, I support my LGBT community and I don't look down on someone who is different. I also don't tolerate people who are closeminded and can't accept people for who they are. I support gay marriage and I believe everyone should be treated EQUALLY in EVERY aspect of life, not just some and not the others.

Alright, so now that I'm off that soapbox...

Back to my favorite thing in the world!! BUG!

I am such a mean mother making him pose in a tree....

Before we had our weekly play date with Uncle Wade, Auntie Michelle, Baby Avery, and Uncle Scottie, Bug was helping me clean and he found his sunglasses. He wore them around the house. Both of them. At once.

Exhibit A...



He's a cute goofy kid and I love every moment of it!

Alright it looks like one of us is down for the count...guess that means it's my turn!

Until then, goodnight...

♫ Tomorrow's another day
And I'm thirsty anyway
So bring on the rain - Jo Dee Messina ♫

Live. Laugh. Love. Sing. Dance.

Live like there is no tomorrow.

Laugh until you cry.

Love like you have never loved before.

Sing like no one is listening.

Dance like no one is watching.

The only rules in life I have are the ones above and I am slowly rubbing off on my Bug. My best friend and partner in crime, aka Auntie Lacey, has dubbed me JukeBox. I can finish a song, I can tell you the title and artist and I will sing, threaten you and pick up where I left off. *tear* Ahhh...the good times. Trust me, you will see random songs through out my posts just because I am always singing and feel the need to share.

♫ We went out last night...like we swore we wouldn't do...♫

I present to you....Auntie Lacey!



I sing constantly, and I may suck at it, but I have fun. I have noticed more and more Bug sings the songs with me. He's learning them pretty quickly. I may have to call him 'portable jukebox'. He's slowly getting to the point where he's getting less shy and will dance with me in the kitchen or in the middle of the living room.

Whatever you do DON'T dance at the dinner table. Last time I did that, Bug told me that it was not okay. Apparently his father has a little influence in his gene pool. Not to worry, I'll fix that. No need for my son to think there are only certain times of the day it's okay to sing and dance! If his heart and body feel the need to sing and dance then he should not have to stop himself!

[Side note - I absolutely LOVE the kiss my owwie and make it better stage! The best part about this stage is if I miss the spot he says 'No Mommy - right here!! And will make me kiss it again!]

The Del Mar Pumpkin Patch

 

♫ For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on  - Rascal Flatts ♫

Music is where I find my peace now days, and I won't complain one bit. I open my heart and ears to music and when I have moments where I need to refocus myself I turn to music. I have to admit I will lean to country first, but will listen to just about anything. 

There are many things Bug and I are learning as we take this journey and I have to admit, at times it gets hard, but as soon as I see his precious face I know that it's worth every moment. I've learned I am a strong person and I can only go up from here.

This is how the day ended after he spent some time with Auntie Lacey...

Until tomorrow... Bug and I bid you good night! ♥



So it begins...

So here's my attempt to keep up on a blog that family and friends can keep up with throughout the days they don't see Bug. As many my know Bug is my life, and no Bug is not his real name. It originally started when I called him Love Bug and he corrected me telling me he was my Lady Bug - so we settled for just Bug.

Meet Bug...

Bug and I are learning how to be on our own and adjusting to the life style of the two of us. Nights, like tonight, he is with his father so it's my time to catch up on work, school, house cleaning, and apparently now blogging. I'll be sure to thank Auntie Michelle tomorrow when I'm dragging my rear end out of bed and trying to decide what to post next...

Throughout the posts you will slowly meet our family.

Meet Auntie Michelle, Uncle Wade, Baby Avery, and Uncle Scottie

Bug is in the 'why' stage and has just turned three. Karma felt the need to take it easy on me (not that I'm complaining) and I have to say I have the easiest three year old ever. And no, I'm not just saying that because I'm mom, I am saying it because he really is. Terrible twos were not terrible. They were terrific. Rumor has it three is the tough year...I guess we'll find out here as the days roll on by.

As for yours truly, I am going back to school for a second degree and do procurement for a defense contracting. That's about all I can tell you, or else.... My life is my Bug and every now and again I go out and explore the life of a single person. Not too often though, it gets scary out there.

Alright - I should call it a night. Tomorrow is Corbinesday. Can't wait to kiss him! ♥